BAPTISM

I don't think I've ever missed a single baptism service ever since I myself got baptised. It seems that there's always someone I know taking this step of faith with every round of water immersion experience and very often, I find myself dragging my feet there. It's quite a "waste" of time, travelling down to church for 2 whole hours just to witness a 1 minute event. Can't all my friends just baptise at one go? Sigh.

I'll admit that i don't always go with an eager heart...

But I'm always heading home with a refreshed spirit :')

GRUMPY.

Today's the eve of eve and my boss gave us a half day off!!

But guess what? I slept the day away lol. I was like yeah, i'll just take a quick nap. Don't need to change into my pyjamas because i'll need to grab lunch from downstairs later. And the next thing i knew, it was 5 pm already HAHA. But i guess it's ok... i needed it. I feel like i have been sleep-deprived for the longest period of time.

Anyway, i was so happy with the day off! Free time is so precious to me now because now i can do the things i want need to do like:

• pack my room (the state it is in is crazy)
• read my book (i have not read a single thing since holiday started)
• watch my shows (crime scene! 1LOT! Movies!)
• clear my youtube subscriptions
• buy my postage stamps and mail out my letter (procrastinated for 2 weeks already. Christmas is over by the time it reached the recipient).
• try on and wash my new clothes

And and...

HOW IS THERE SO MUCH THINGS TO DO THAT EVEN MY PRECIOUS FREE TIME IS NOT ENOUGH TO COVER IT UP?!

I knew it. I shouldn't have slept 😒.

I need more free days.



Update: Good news. I managed to do a bit of everything and cleared the important ones. Even tried to watch Crime Scene with my mom although she kept falling asleep. I think our tastes in shows are too different. She's dismissive of all my choices that I recommended her. Humph. I am also thankful for the home cooked dinner tonight. I have been so busy this entire holiday that it is safe to say i ate my grandma's food more frequently than my mom's. And my mom prepares dinner almost every day whereas i only see my mama once a week ok. I did not realise how much i miss my mom's cooking until i took the first bite - and she is NOT awesome at culinary. I guess there's just something about home made meals that comfort you. Tonight turned out pretty alright (although i wish that someone would invent a machine that will fold your clothes for you). I am no longer grumpy, yay! :)

It's the eve now. 23 more hours to Christmas.

"In a world that really has been turned on its head, truth is a moment of falsehood."

my current desktop wallpaper

Here are some things i've been enjoying this week:

Budapest - George Erza
The District Sleeps Tonight - Birdy
Every Little Thing She Does - Sleeping At Last
Sleeping early. I've been sleeping at around 10pm recently and it feels gooooood.

I remember talking to a senior majoring in Sociology. He told me how glad he was that his girlfriend was studying the same course as him because you will find it hard to talk to others about what you've learnt. And i can see how that is true now. Not all sociologists are critical thinkers though. Some just parrot what the professors impart without thinking and act as though they are enlightened. Its not about right and wrong!! Its about being critical! I am so irritated. You talk too much and think too little. Like urgh, get your obnoxiousness out of my face please.

I have a class with this Professor who does not have any slides. He simply stand in front and talk for 2 hours. Its amazing and im saying this sincerely, not sarcastically. His ideas flow here and there and he conjures examples spontaneously. His mind works in the speed of a bullet train and im absolutely smitten. I like the way he dresses, the way he speaks, the way he thinks and its really weird to say all these because he is twice the age of me (and probably even more).

Anyway, i love it! I love it, i love it, i love it. That, to me, is how education and knowledge should look like. An exchange of ideas; a sharpening of minds; a meeting of souls. Not some rigid education strictly based on rights and wrongs. The number 1 question i get asked most is, "What jobs can Sociologists work as?" Does it really matter that much? I dont care. If i have the choice (and i do), i am not going to torture myself by chasing after things that do not even matter to me.

One Professor asked me why i wanted to study Sociology during the admission interview. I told her, "I think it is important to know what we believe and why we believe because it shapes our actions and who we are."

If i gain all the wisdom in the world and yet have no idea of who i am at the end of the day, what's the use?

The world needs a lot more critical thinkers.

up up up updates

Last Friday wasnt a very good day because i got to know where I'm interning at. I whined and whined to Ms Mary haha. On the other hand, i received many notes from DTVM peeps! Some were strange, some were REALLY unexpected and most were very nice messages (:

Anyway, i knew Xiuwen was quite concerned about me being upset over my internship placement. Truth be told, i was indeed quite upset. Though that piece of cake i ate at Holland V did soothe the pain a little ;) The most ironic part was that days before i knew where i was headed to, i told God that i will trust Him. More than anybody, i should know what i am exactly where He wants me to be since looking back at my life, it is really undeniable that the family, friends, schools that i was put in is not just some random occurrence. But i was really scared of the uncertainties. Now im feeling all better especially after the interview. Although im going to do work that i've never learnt before, i felt "ah, yes. this must be part of the reason why God placed me here" and so yup. All better.

Recollection for the week as follows:
Christian bookstore and shopping on Monday.
Interview and Moonrise Kingdom on Tuesday.
Prayer Room and ULG on Wednesday.
Transformers marathon and C.O.N dinner on Thursday.
Slacking at home on Friday (i was supposed to jog but... T.T I WAS TOO LAZY!)
MLG Food IC meeting today.
Slacking yet again on Sunday.

Yummiest Japanese meal eveeeeeer! Although its spaghetti but the restaurant was Japanese so...

If picture was a thousand words, then this would be a million words long.

Today was quite a meaningful day. Since the start of holidays, I have been watching many shows. But today, my laptop was lent out to Se Yong and honestly, i simply hate to use Windows now that I have taste the goodness of a MacBook (plus the fact that im lazy to download flash player on iPad) so i had no choice but to not watch any shows. Instead, I downloaded Game Of Thrones and started reading it.

OMGGGG, its really good! Usually most books start to bore me halfway through... or maybe because i havent been reading the right books... but GOT is very well-written. I like the literary style, the plot development and the characters! Since im still at book 1 and the characters and stories are still building up, i do hope that something big is going to happen soon cause right now its just series of events happening to different characters.

Ahh, finally. I have started missing to read books.

And also, i jogged around my estate today. Cue gasping. I think a few months ago, i blogged about wanting to exercise once a week. It never did materialize after the first session HAHAHAHA. But i shall commit from now on!! The inciting incident? Because of my growing tummy ):

I AM SUPER SAD ABOUT IT LEH. I always have high metabolism rate. When i was younger, i looked like a starving african child. And its not that i didnt eat. I ATE. But it wasnt enough so i forced myself to maximise my eating capacity. Which is why i can eat a lot nowadays. BUT! Unfortunately, i read somewhere that as you grow older, your metabolism rate will decrease especially when you hit 25 years old! And i really do think my metabolism rate is dropping!! I mean, im not eating as much as i used to (ok... i take that back since I'm always eating cakes nowadays) but i feel like im getting rounder. Which is fine by me since im still skinny =.= BUT! Imagine... i am so skinny yet i have a tummy. So sad right? So i decided to exercise.

Obviously its not only because of my tummy but also because im trying to lead a healthier lifestyle now. Thanks to Cyril and YongEn who scared the shit out of my about fats and heart attacks and whatnots ages ago. I told them that i have a high metabolism rate so even if i dont exercise, my fats will get burn away. But they told me that trans fat cant be burn away!!!! Damn it. I always eat fries and nuggets. If you know me well enough, in Year 3 Sem 1 i ate 4 nuggets (or more) EVERY. SINGLE. DAY. Because it was the cheapest and yummiest "snack" in FC 6. Then they told me nuggets were the unhealthiest junk food since it made up of different chicken parts that no one would eat. O.M.G. Since then, i have reduced my sugar intake and eating carbonated stuff... by a little. Heh.

So anyway, why did i choose jogging instead of other exercises that specifically targets at slimming down tummy? Er... because im too lazy to find exercises for that. And honestly, jogging is the most simplest form of exercising. You just have to move your legs and just plug in your earphones. And its very efficient! My friend went jogging 4 times a week, 30 mins each session and omg, she slimmed down by half her size. O.O

So yes. Jogging. Since im not trying to slim down, i decided that 30 mins per week should be enough for me. And hence, i went jogging today. By the end of 2 rounds (or roughly 20 mins) I couldnt take it anymore. My feet were burning. WTH. I didnt know feet could burn!! My vision was coloured with a purple tint and everything was too bright. Every muscle in my body ached even though i technically exercised with my leg muscles mainly =.= I cant even stand properly.

This ache lasted a longggg time ok. When i went to bathed, i usually flipped my hair over cause i would slap conditioner all over it and i don't want it to get into contact with my body. And my neck felt like it was going to break. Im not even exaggerating. I dont understand why my neck muscle also can hurt WHEN I DONT EVEN USE MY NECK MUSCLES TO RUN IN THE FIRST PLACE. My stamina and health and lungs must be really in a bad condition. I only ran for 20 mins which is a reasonable time and yet i felt like i was going to die. Srsly have to buck up from now on.

On a side note, Im proud of myself because i ran continuously! Except for the time when i stopped to tie my shoelaces. For me its always mind over matter so i pushed myself all the way even though i wanted to die already. And i do feel that my tummy has deflat!! YES!! THANK GOD THAT I STILL HAVE A HIGH METABOLISM RATE! OFF YOU GO, FATS!

Ok, i have written quite a bit and if you managed to survive that, hats off to you! Shall spam pictures now.

Hahaha, we always ALWAYS do jump shots.

Handsome angmoh guy *o*

Me and my sister. At least our hair resemble each other's

Idk what im doing but look at my thighs. I dont know how my aunt angled to camera that it turned out so creepy D:

I was taking picture all by myself when this angmoh tourist photo bombed me. I looked at him curiously and gave a nervous laugh, hoping that he would go away so i could take another picture. But no. He suggested to take a picture together. Even though i was smiling, you can tell from the picture above that my body language screams "AWKWARD!!!"

He seemed relaxed though =.=

Haha, using the sun to dry our buttocks.

Yup. The end. Good luck to everyone tomorrow seeing we will know our internship locations. SIGH. I hope i wont get some weird/lousy ones.

why don't we go somewhere only we know?

Damn it.
Met so many old acquaintances in school within 20 minutes and was forced to either say hi, ignore their presence or pretend to be busy.

Rule #1 in university next year: Make as little friends as possible.

Favourite song of the moment:

X.X

I feel like a superglue that is holding everyone together and yet on the verge of being worn thin.
So many things happening, homg.

#ihatemynose

Entire outfit from OSF. Shopped there 2 weeks ago.

there may be pain in the night, but joy comes in the morning.

煩

Hide me now under Your wings

Yesterday, Se Yong asked me if I were crying during Praise and Worship. I replied, “Yes… Actually, I cry almost every service… because I can really feel God’s love,”

Its really hard to explain how you can love something that is so intangible, not to mention feeling it. I don’t think I can ever explain it properly but its something that once you feel it, you cannot deny it. And for me, because im such a crybaby, tears just stream down my face every time I worship God.

Looking back, its funny to think that I am a Christian now. From me hating people who ask me go church, to becoming a believer, to going to service once in a blue moon, to going to service regularly but thinking its so boring, to now: regularly attending services and enjoying it.

To be honest, going to church is what I look forward to every week. I love singing Praise and Worship, I love sermons because I want to know more about God and I love fellowships because I feel so, so, so safe and secure and happy with my church friends. I just feel that I have so much love bottled inside me that it is overflowing and hence, I hug everyone all the time (my love language is touch).

 Hehehe.

On a non-spiritual basis, I WENT SHOPPING WITH SH YESTERDAY! I havent shop since Jan, i think? And OSF had a sale so it was worth it :D Will update the clothes I've bought some other time. HOHOHO ^^

And yes!!! INTERNSHIP IS OVER! 6 weeks of torture T_T I dont know how am i going to survive 6 months! Hopefully there will be friends accompanying me. So glad that school is starting. I dont ever want to work! I just want to study T_T

When the oceans rise and thunders roar

I will soar with You above the storm

Father you are King over the flood

I will be still and know You are God

what to weeeeeear???

My colleague informed me that I will be attending 2 fashion shows this Friday.
AND I HAVE ABSOLUTELY NOTHING TO WEAR!

I hate this kind of situations where you have to think really carefully about what you wear. Urgh ):

The people at my office thinks im hardworking.
Hahahaha, if they only knew... :/