And after struggling with the same sin over and over again, do you feel conflicted? You feel ashamed and guilty but God says its ok just repent and come back to me. Then you sin again and you start to understand that the weight of your guilt is not just your present sins but also the possibility of your future sins. What's the point of feeling guilty if it only draws you away from God? And yet what's the point of going back to God only to sin in the same area again? Aren't you sick of this cycle? Where's the sincerity in repenting? How are you deserving of this grace?
Service last week reminded me of my journey with Christ. As i looked back, i realised that even if i have to bear the humiliation of being unworthy, i still want to be in God's love. I'd crawl my way back even if i have to. People may say i am thick-skinned or unabashed of my own sins but i'd rather be scorned at - by others and myself - than to not tie the laces of His shoes.
I am sorry.
❝ I wonder how they could yell Barabbas instead of Jesus.
I wonder how they sang Hosanna and days later, Crucify him.
I wonder how Pontius could wash his hands of it, as though a dirty conscience could be so easily cleaned.
But — I am Barabbas, sinner set free.
I yell Crucify him as I sing praises with ease.
I am Pontius, who turned a blind eye to glory.
And yet, so Christ still died for me.
Still he died, where I should be,
a perfect love on that tree. ❞
— J.S. (via jspark3000)
I wonder how they sang Hosanna and days later, Crucify him.
I wonder how Pontius could wash his hands of it, as though a dirty conscience could be so easily cleaned.
But — I am Barabbas, sinner set free.
I yell Crucify him as I sing praises with ease.
I am Pontius, who turned a blind eye to glory.
And yet, so Christ still died for me.
Still he died, where I should be,
a perfect love on that tree. ❞
— J.S. (via jspark3000)
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