I was procrastinating but because he had to leave, i finally confessed! I was blabbering for quite awhile cause i dont know what to say and i spitted out nonsense. When i finally could not drag it any longer, i confessed.
Er, let's just say that things happened really quickly so i dont remember the exact details.
Oh, but i do remember that i was having such a hard time to say "the person i like is you" and that my heart was crazily beating. And i, once again, blabbered after i confessed. Well, i guess whatever that's happened is not important. My feelings should be the highlight.
Im not going to lie - i did feel disappointed. Plus, there was a weird tug in my heart. However, everything was fine after, perhaps, 15 minutes. I know i should be really sad or cry or something but i didnt. Worse still, i suddenly felt happy and excited and high for no good reason. Seriously, how can anyone be gay in such a short period of time?
My guess is that my feelings arent that deep. Huh, but i have to say, confessing was the right thing to do! I highly recommend anyone with a crush to confess! I initially thought that those who said "after you confessed, there will be a sense of relief" must be losers and are just trying to comfort themselves. But omg, i really did feel a lot better! Not instantaneously but the good vibe will come!
And of course, i've got friends who cheered me up (:
There is just one more question... did he reject me because of our age gap or because he really didnt have feelings? I did not ask him because i dont want him to feel bad. It was obvious that he's a little guilty. I have no idea why he would feel that but he sent me an sms saying he felt bad. I still dont understand but oh well. Whatever, the main thing is i am free to find other guys~~~~ My heart is liberalized!!
YAY :D
So, if you have a crush go on and say it out loud! Its scary when you're on the brink of saying but after that, ITS HAPPY TIME!
lalalalalala, im a crazy and happy girl ^^ I feel great~~~ I shall give a pat on my head!
Anyway, im going to watch Summer Desire. The plot is really not what you expect. You'd expect that the female lead is pitiful. I actually felt sorry for her but in the 2nd episode, it was revealed that she doesnt care much about love. She's willing to use love as a tool for fame and success. Maybe that's not the real her but whatever. I love how unpredictable and different the character is so im going to watch.
CYA!
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