hey hey hey, may i ask, what is this im feeling?

I decided to update because i dont want the first thing that i see on my blog to be the previous post. No, im not depressed. Its just that every time i think of what i did before i confessed, i cant help but to cringe and feel like avoiding him for the rest of my life. Why do i always do things to embarrass myself?!?!

Anyway, im just gonna write out whatever's on my mind. Thousands of things run through my mind every single day so dont blame me if this post is draggy!

Ok, the first thing that comes to my mind is dreams. How do dreams work, i often find myself wondering. Because on some days, i wake up to find that i just had the most bizzare dream ever! They say that if you keep thinking of a certain person in the day, you'll dream of them at night. It has never work... at least, not in the way i want to.

Anyway, i dreamt of this guy which i have not contacted for 2 months! In fact, it was so long before i saw him that i actually went "Hey! What's the name of the guy in my dream?" and i took around an hour to finally remember his name.

Then, i also dreamt of a certain someone. I've never dream of him before but after the incident, poof! Its a pretty terrifying dream. If it happens in real life, im not sure how i would react - to faint out of shock or to stare horrifyingly. Maybe I'd even cry myself to sleep or die of embarrassment.

Hmm, maybe i should become a dream expert and figure out all these mysteries!

Kidding.

Today, i went for a buffet to celebrate Abby's birthday. My heart almost stopped beating because i thought i saw someone. From far, he resembles my friend. And seeing the stranger makes me feel... weird. Like my feelings that i had suppressed unknowingly rush out all at once. No, its not good because it only mean that im still stuck and i dont want to be stuck at all ): Oh well, i'll see how it goes!

Sometimes, when i read people's blog, i wonder how they achieve their blogging style. Some blog as though they're talking to themselves which is real funny and entertaining to read. Some blog about their life, spamming their blog with their social pictures which are nice to look at. Others, like me, blog about their uninteresting life (without pictures and humour some more), making their blog even more dull than ever. Seriously, i wonder why people read my blog. Or even worse, maybe no one is reading this D:

Oh dear, im such a boring person!

PS, dear feelings...

CAN YOU STOP BEING SO SCREWED UP?!