and i wonder if you know i cried while reading...?

I woke up early today to do my citations for WMM. And since i had time, i decided to do something special to my hair. I only braided one side cause im too lazy to do the other side. But guess what? ZT posted on my fb that my hair is messy like a madwoman.

Thanks ah.

And today, we missed the time to submit WMM. Ching Peng was hammering the staple because it could not staple 70 pages. When we found out where Ms Emida was, the 02 was doing their presentation. Anginn, Ching Peng and me were standing outside wondering if we should interrupt the class. I squatted down and peered into the glass to see where Emida is. When i saw Emida walking pass, i knocked impulsively. Plonk, it went and Emida squatted down to see who's outside.

Yeah, Anginn, Emida and me were all bending our bodies and twisting our heads to get a glimpse of one another.

I think all of us were worried and frustrated but as we look back, we realised we have so many stupid and funny moments.



Sometimes, i wonder if people think im a lucky person. I think i am. I have good friends, my results are ok, i dont have to worry about my financial status.

But i wasn't always happy.
I do have a scarred past. I used to cry myself to sleep every night. I used to be ashamed of who i am. I used to think my parents will hate me forever. I used get bullied all the time because i couldnt stand up for myself. I used to have no friends - my friends were the ones who bullied me. I used to think, "Why me? Why do i have to go through all these?".

And all of my problems, i kept it to myself. But luckily, i managed to overcome my past. I swore i would never tell what happened to me in primary school, not even my girlfriends, because i was so embarrassed by it. But now, if they were to ask, i would tell them. Because im finally, completely over my ugly past. I am not sorry about my past anymore because it was those incidents that shaped who i am today.

And i am not ashamed of who i am.
I've learnt to love and be happy for myself.


The main reason why i am not murking in the darkness of my shadows is because of the 3 of you. Over the past few years, i have repeated over and over again how much i appreciate you, love you and owe you. I never said it out irl but i mentioned it so many times in my previous blogs. I mean all of those words.

YL taught me to be happy.
XY taught me to be kind and forgiving.
SH taught me to be confident.

My primary school life might be tough but eventually i left the school a few of the most important people in my life. And i thank you guys for being in my life because you have made such a big impact. You guys helped me to break through and im sorry if i couldnt do the same for you. Im sorry if i cant be enough.

But you are not alone and i will always be there for you.

All images for this post are from my tumblr.