Hahaha, so you guys everyday got stuff to read~ unlike me who has to keep waiting ):
This past week hasn't been eventful but there are definitely many thoughts that ran through my mind. I was thinking about my future, about why Emma Wastons can be so pretty, about Harry Potter and about people in general.
I want to blog about all of it but it's going to be reaaaaaally long so i'll start of with "people in general".
I want to start off with this picture:
So whatever i say later might lead to you think, "What is her problem? Like that also want vent out frustrations?", just think back of the above picture.
I would like to think that i'm quite a selfless person. I dont care if you disagree because who can know myself better than i do... right? So usually when people ask me for help i would agree. When people ask me to send them my CA reports for reference i would do so. When people ask me to do some difficult stuff that they dont dare to do, i would.
The most common phrase that my family repeats to me since young is,
"You cannot be so selfish"
Really. I hear it all the time, everyday when i was a child. And that's me. I like to help people and i've always thought that its an instinct for people to help one another.
NO.
As i grow up, i see how selfish some people can be. It hurts. When i help people, i dont expect them to give me incentives or what. But at least when i need aid, you would at least be there? Then there are other times when i witness someone reject to help their friend just because they're lazy.
I am appalled and shocked. I mean if you are selfish towards me, i can still tolerate because we're not that close but your good friend? I cannot comprehend how someone can be so selfish to the point of they'll reject you (well, they help out eventually but were very unwilling) just because they find it TROUBLESOME. A friend is supposed to be there for you and to help you if you need. And you're not afraid to flaunt it. Wow, just wow. I pray one day you'll realise the importance of helping other people.
Well, thank GOD i'm not your close friend, really. You wouldn't be there if i need one. And because what you did, i know what kind of person you are and i will hesitate too when you need help.
I'm not a saint. I dont mind helping people but i've got a limit you know? You cannot expect me to always do your dirty work and avoid me like a plague when im in trouble. Sometimes, i refuse to help and just wait for some other people to save you because im sick and tired to always be the one kena pushed around.
But eventually i would probably give in anyway =.=
Well, i believe in karma. Even if i'm not the one who gives you the "punishment", i'm sure you'll received it some other time.
Actually i am not that frustrated anymore but once i started this post, i began to feel the anger and disappointment again ):
I guess this is one of the reasons why i have very few close friends. I'm very picky. So if you know any imperfections of mine, please please please tell me! You can write in my formspring or text me or fb me or something. I know pretty much all of my good traits but i think im blind to my own imperfections. Right now i can only think of 2.
1. Easily angered
2. Sometimes childish
I'm sure there are others so if you know, do not hesitate to tell me. I will not be offended and im highly interested to know (:
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