from the past

Havent been blogging lately because 1. no topic and 2. too lazy. So, in order to revive my blog, i went to dig up drafts which were saved longggggg time ago. I wrote the rest of the entry on the 2nd June 2010. I guess its time to finally post this up -____- Well, enjoy this dreary entry~

Many people have asked me these questions:

What are the future career options for your course?

Are you sure DTVM is the course for you?

Do you think you'll have a future in it?

I've been doing a lot of thinking since i got into my course. Believe it or not, i actually chose my course out of whim. Let me rewind to give you a clearer picture.

I came to the conclusion that Mass Comm was the course for me when i was in Sec 3. That was my goal for O level. I wanted to get into the course so badly that i started working hard for my maths.

If you were my classmates, you'll know that i failed my maths classes throughout the last 2 years of Secondary school. I was so desperate that i actually FORCED myself to study maths. I FORCED myself to practice maths even though i loathe it. I was so determined to get into Mass Comm that i didnt even consider any other courses.

When i had to fill in the 12 choices, i didnt know what to write! That was how bad it is, i was so focused on Mass Comm that i dont know what else to write. And i decided that if i cant get into the best Mass Comm around (NP), then what's the point? So, initially, my first three choices were Mass Comm from 3 different polys. In the end, i decided to put NP's Mass Comm first, then SP's Creative Writing.

I didnt even know there was such a course. I didnt go for the open house. I just saw it on the brochure and decided that i like writing and so bam, it was my second choice. I had absolutely NO idea what the course was about. I was definitely not as enthusiastic as my course mates. They actually planned to get into DTVM whereas, for me, i only stumbled upon this course because i wanted to fill in all my 12 choices.

Thus, when i entered this course, i had zero idea what my future looks like. Obviously, my father was worried. He asked what were the future options and the only answer i could come out with was "scriptwriting".

I bombarded myself with such questions in the beginning. I do love my course. I really enjoy my time there, i love everything that i learn. But there are times where my insecurities sink in. What am i going to do? Get a degree overseas? Start working right after poly?

In the end, i decided to live for the moment. What if -touchwood- i die tomorrow? At least im happy with my life now. If i were to do a course which has good job opportunities but i hated and -touchwood again- die tomorrow, wouldnt my life be pathetic? I would have die as a sad person living a life she dislikes. I would have joined the course for nothing!

So here's my advice: Heck care about the future. You dont know what the future would bring. Just close your eyes and dive in. Do what you want. Dont even think twice.

No, this is not walking blindly into the future. This is what i call walking into the future with hope.