If I am lost for a day, try and find me

Im very very stressed. This is worst than during my sec 4 period o.O
Im scared! What if no one comes for this event? What if im not doing a good job? I know people are worried that the first event that we are planning will be a flop... im worried too! I dont show it but inside my heart, there's this great battle. Every time im alone (eg on trains), i will start thinking about Games Day, start planning who to call, when to call. I even made many lists so that i can keep track and follow the schedule. My results may be shitty but that doesnt mean my efforts are, too! I put in alot of my effort ok! I feel like this whole thing is draining my energy and blood. Im going to die from being a worrywart. I know that i should relax which is what im trying to do. But before i know it, im busying myself again because people think that im slacking off.

omg, i think im going to die young at this rate.
But its ok! After next week, i'll be free... i think?
JIAYOU!!!!!



If I am lost for a day; try and find me
But if I don't come back, then I won't look behind me
All of the things that I thought were so easy
just got harder and harder each day

December is the darkest and June is the light
but this empty bedroom won't make anything right
While out on the landing a friend I forgot to send home
Who waits up for me all through the night

Calendar girl whos in love with the world Stay alive
Calendar Girl whos in love with the world Stay alive

I dreamed I was dying; as I so often do
And when I awoke I was sure it was true
I ran to the window; threw my head to the sky
And said whoever is up there, please don't let me die

But I can't live forever, I can't always be
One day I'll be sand on a beach by a sea
The pages keep turning, I'll mark off each day with a cross
And I'll laugh about all that we've lost

Calendar Girl who is lost to the world Stay Alive
Calendar Girl who is lost to the world Stay Alive

January, February, March, April, May I'm alive
June, July, August, September, October I'm alive
November, December, yah all through the winter, I'm alive
I'm alive