Its been so long since i blogged(not really)! I've got many things that i want to say and i've been meaning to blog. Its not that i do not have time, like yesterday where i wasted 4 hours ++ in school, but something always pops out. But im free now so hurray! Here's a blog post :D
Ok, before i start on the main topic, i just want to shout out something...
IM GOING TO MEDIACORP TO WATCH HOW THEY WORK TOMORROW IN A LIVE FILM!
When Ms Stella came in to tell us this news, everyone in the class started cheering. Oh gosh, i knew my course is cool but i didnt know that it'll be this cool :DDDD uh-huh, im loving my course more and more ^^
Now, its time to blog about something more serious.
You know how fate works? I think its pretty incredible. 2 months ago, i wouldnt be thinking of joining any school camp. 1 month ago, i wouldnt be thinking of joining CSCC. But here i am, in CSCC, in one of the sub-comms, in Welfare.
When SP sent me the camp brochure, i didnt even look at it. I was like, camp? Nah! Unfortunately (at that point of time), my friend had already paid the camp fee for me. And before i knew it, i was packing my bags.
I enjoyed my time there. Even though some of the stations were really disgusting, it was a fun and unforgettable camp overall. Actually, it was the best camp i've ever attended (not that i've joined many camps). I made many new friends. No, "many" is an understatement but you get what i mean.
However, when the seniors/camp mates asked me if i want to join CSCC, i was still hesitating. Clubs are fun but there are hard work too. A lot of my time will be sacrificed and i was not sure if i was willing to join. But, when my friends kept chirping about how they want to join CSCC, i began to waver. Finally, i joined CSCC. Even when i was filling out the form, i did not have a serious attitude as compared to the rest.
But i was worried if i could get into sub-comm. You know how CCA points are important and if i did not get into any sub-comms, i will not have CCA points. Besides, there were many people applying for the sub-comm and i am not an outstanding person.
When the results came out, i was in! Out of around 90 interviewers, only around 20 got in. I was one of the lucky 20. I knew that i got in not because i was outgoing or anything. It was because something happened. If something did not happen, i wouldnt be in Welfare. And when my friend did not make it, i realised that i was actually depriving people of their opportunities. They were the ones who had real leadership. They were the ones who wanted to join sub-comm desperately. They were the ones who deserved the place.
Not me.
I was apathetic about joining CSCC. But right now, i really do care about being in Welfare. And, knowing that im actually not good enough for this position, i appreciate the fact that im in Welfare even more. In order not to deprive people's opportunities, the only thing i can do now is to work hard. I will strive hard, i will be more outgoing, i will be a leader.
I will not disappoint anyone.
I heart CSCC!
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