we could be so much more

I feel like banging my head on the wall. I feel like im going crazy soon. I stayed up just for you but why wont you reply me? Are you really that clueless or are you just messing with my head? Sometimes you're hot, sometimes you're cold. At first im damn confident but now im just confused and scared.

I cant believe that im saying this but i hate the holidays. Holidays = spare time = wandering mind. I need to occupy myself with events. If this continue, i think i will die from over thinking. I seriously need to confess soon and get over it. Oh man, im still debating whether to do it online or face to face.

X.X

I NEED TO ASSERT SELF CONTROL! >:(