queen of spastic

Can someone tell me why is Emma Watsons so pretty? She looks stunning even though its candid shots. I mean, come on. My candid photos all look like this:

Le sigh.

"chicken bits for sale!"

Sigh. You tell me why the world so unfair la. #FML.

Ending off with a picture of me and Emma Watson side by side...








































kthxbai.

Its easier to doubt than to have faith.
I wonder what the future holds for you and me.
And... humans are so contradicting.

Cause i'm so bad bad, I'm so hood hood.

When Ms Stella told us the new "latecomer" policy, this is what i think of:



Well, many people asked me today why i want to put my hood up.
Acutally, i've always liked hoods. And today i was inspired by 2NE1.

EXPECTATION:

EXPECTATION MET:

Bet you thought i was going to say Expectation/Reality right? Too bad i'm a shameless person. So there, heehee.

Last Thursday, I schemed to wear "leopard prints" with Tanya and Raseena. But Anginn also wore leopard prints! Ok, she said it was army prints but i insist otherwise. Heh.
(Btw, my mom told me i looked fat with the outfit. Thanks a lot for your love and care, mom.)




ZT keeps wanting to show off his Fred Perry logo =.=
Raseena didnt take a photo with us though ): Nvm, we shall synchronise again someday! :D

♥

Taken with Tanya's phone. Her rainbow screen protector gives off this white halo/glow effect. At least its good for something ^^

Both hands tied behind my back with nothing
Oh no, these times when we climb so fast to fall again
Why we gotta fall for it now
I never meant to start a war
You know I never wanna hurt you
Don't even know what we're fighting for
Why does love always feel like a battlefield?

We walk by faith and not by sight

“I've learned that no matter how good a friend someone is, they're going to hurt you every once in awhile and you must forgive them for that.”
I want to emphasize on this: I am not angry/mad. I may be frustrated and upset but i was never furious at you. And though i shed tears over your words, i forgive you. And i will always forgive you no matter how much hurt you cause me, be it intentional or not, because i love you.

Well, i just hope Christians can live lives as good Christians because more and more people will put us to the test. This fight will be long and tedious but may our hearts and spirits never rest.

Tell the world that Jesus lives

I went for the Doctrine classes and honestly, i wished that i went for those classes earlier. Foundation is very important and my foundation has been shaky for the past year because i didnt know a lot about God, i dont read the Bible and i never asked people questions. I had so many doubts and Doctrine classes really answered many of them (:

Service was great today! Usually during service, i'm half-asleep/half-daydreaming. But i like the Preacher today :D He is super funny, i swear. What shoulder massage, oil massage and etc. If BAG were there we would be snickering "TWSS!", hahahaha. Besides that, the testimonies were really encouraging (:


Like this guy donated 4 chairs to Church (1 chair costs about $300 i think?) and because of that, he couldnt go to Korea with his friends. Plus he just graduated from Poly so he didnt have much money. He went to look for a job so that he can work during the 4 mths before entering NS and he found one. The job actually pays $1.5k but he wanted $1.8k. In the end, the PR called and told him his monthly salary is around $3k! This happened after he donated to expand the Kingdom of God. And really, God is amazing. He will never shortchange us and we can never out-give Him :D

My story not as awesome as his but if you care to know...
This month, i gave 1/4 of my monthly "income". It may not seem a lot but it is to me. 1/4 donated to church, another 1/4 for my transportation fees. So i'm left with 1/2 of what i have for the month of July. Normally, i will run out of money every month. You can go read my past archives. So mathematically speaking, i would DEFINITELY run out of money this month since i donated so much to church right?

NO.
In fact, i didnt even worry about my spendings at all. Ya la, i got say "im going to be broke!" But im not broke yet. Still have $$ to survive hahaha. Usually, by the end of the month i would be ripping my hair out trying to scrape money. But i actually survived July (or about to, anyway)! Omg, its not like i purposely starve myself to save money or what. I still eat as much, i still go shopping and buy stuff like mad. But the difference is God saw to it that i can survive :D

Matthew 6:33-34

³³ But seek first his kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well. ³⁴ Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own.

And when we studied Jonah's story today, i was actually in awed.

Jonah 1:17 “Now the LORD had prepared a great fish to swallow Jonah. And Jonah was in the belly of the fish three days and three nights.”

Jonah 2:10 “So the LORD spoke to the fish, and it vomited Jonah onto dry land.”

At first i was, whaaaat?? A fish swallowed a man and he can still live?? Well, do you know that technically it can happen? Sperm whales are able to swallow a human because their gullets are big enough. Of course, that's not to say that Jonah was swallowed by a sperm whale but that could be it. And since God is a creator, anything can happen so yeah.


Then, the story of Charlie Coulson.
I cried because its so touching. His limbs were about to be amputated but he refused to be given chloroform. The doctor, was a Jew, was shocked and asked why. The boy replied,

"Doctor, one Sunday afternoon, in the Sabbath-school, when I was nine and a half years old, I gave my heart to Christ. I learned to trust Him then; I have been trusting Him ever since, and I can trust Him now; He is my strength and my stimulant; He will support me while you amputate my arm and leg."

The boy did not groan during the operation. A few days later, before the boy died, he told the doctor this,

"Five days ago, while you amputated my arm and leg, I prayed to the Lord Jesus Christ to convert your soul."

(You can read the story here.)


Really. A person undergoing so much pain can still pray for others )': And i began to think: If he can pray for others given his situation, why cant i take the time to pray for my friends and family? Tbh, i suck at praying. Im very easily distracted and sometimes i fell asleep while praying halfway.

I know. (Y)
But today, i want to really take my time to pray for the people i love. I cut out some paper, wrote names, and pen down what troubles they are going through and what i want to pray for them. Here are the groups of people i am going to pray for:

YL, XY, SH
Seconday Clique of 9 + Shirleen
BAG
Rebekah, Pearl, Raseena, Tanya, Elitha
my beloved LG
me and my family.


Non-Christians, please do not be offended in any way. Its just a gesture to show that i care and love all of you (: And those whose names are not listed, i am sorry. I am praying for people who are closer to me. If you want me to pray for you, you can just tell me (:
Well, if anyone wants to know what im going to pray for each individual, you can ask me and i can give you the card that i wrote your name on ^^

The more I seek you, the more I find you
The more I find you, the more I love you
I wanna sit at your feet, drink from the cup in your hand.
Lay back against you and breath, feel your heart beat
This love is so deep, it's more than I can stand.
I melt in your peace, it's overwhelming

/updated: I know its only July/August and my birthday is in September. But if anyone is planning to give me a birthday present, you dont have to spend a single cent. Just come to my church once and im more than happy already (: Im not asking anyone to convert but i just want to give everybody a chance to come know (or renew your belief in) God. The rest is up to your free will because God is a God of love and mercy. He will never force anybody to be a Christian if they refuse to (:

Secret Big Bang

While doing my CA research on Secret Garden, i thought that the poem or tongue twister that JW recites might be important so i went to find and i found this parody by Big Bang. Omg, my favourite boys never fail to disappoint me! Daesung is still as funny as ever :D They did a parody of the famous scenes in Secret Garden. To those who watched the 2 episodes... you should find this familiar ;D

Handsome Top as JW:
Seungri as Oska. His hair is epic, i swear!!

And Daesung as Manager Park. Hahaha became so toot and so docile!
The first scene. RI acts playful to director. The director's hair machiam cut out from mop like that hahahahahha.

And then JW comes in, looking all cute ^^
He mistook RI as Chae and grab her. Later that day... he cant stop thinking about her. So he recite the "poem" and...


suddenly dance! So random and funny!! And of course, he still cant get her off his mind and began fantasizing. My fave fantasy RI:

HAHAHA his weird finger movements. I swear! (Y)

You think i spoilt the parody for you? Noooooo! There is so much more!
Do not watch part 2 because its gonna be a spoiler! Im holding it in. Meanwhile, i've discovered that they did many parodies of Korea's famous dramas. HAHAHA i shall go enjoy now~

Stop ta-ta-talking that blah blah blah. Think you'll be getting this? Nah nah nah.

That's what i wore to HP.
I decided to dress up (well, some might still think its slouchy but whatever) since its HP. I wore my favourite shorts and this black tee which i havent worn for a year. The last time i wore it was ZJ's bday party, Aug 2010.

I realised i lost that diamond necklace ): AND I REMEMBERED THAT I FORGOT TO BRING BACK MY CHOCOLATES AFTER TRADING AWAY THE "BAD" ONES TO THE "GOOD" ONES ):

Back to HP: I tried to curl my hair but failed. I didnt have any heat protectant so i used the one and only that i owned, which is also specially for STRAIGHTENING, not curling. Lol.

Yup. One side straighter than the other. And that's after i curled all my hair, or rather, too tired to keep recurling because the curls cant be maintained. My purple hair is starting to fade to red. I feel like dying it orange-brown next like this:


He is known as typicalben and the reason why i started reading his blog was because his hair looked awesome (well, before going army la).


And currently:


Still not bad. The first thing i look out for a guy is not his eyes but his hair. I think guys who have super nice hair are hard to come by. He carries off orange hair so well that i want to have orange hair too! If one day i should dye orange, you know where the inspiration comes from!

And, back to HP again: I think the movie was so-so. Not disappointed but not all that great either. It did a good job on explaining itself so even if you didnt watch Part 1, you probably can still catch up. The reason why i think the movie was just ok might be because there are so many things in the book that are left out! I wanted to see more relationships development and i wanted to see more of Draco and Snape.

Argh, Snape. They should play more screen time of his childhood/relationship with Lily. It was the only part i cried. I even cried the scene before because i knew what was coming. Its really touching how one can love another so much, especially for a character like Snape. C'mon, even cereal guy feels for him:

After the movie, Nat said, "We should do this kind of outing more often!"
The irony. We like outings where we dont have to communicate with one another. Well, we did talk about the movie after it ended but... that's pretty much what we talked about. If i remember correctly, the last outing we had as a class (well, i guess this one is kind of a class outing even though minority turned up) was Inception. Movie. Again.

Oh well.

And today, while walking along Tamp MRT, someone tapped me from the back. I thought it was someone i knew but it wasnt so i continued walking. The person tapped me again. This time, she flashed me a name card and here it goes again.

I swear. Model hunters are lurking in Tampines forever. So i played my part: pretended to listen, and gave her a fake number. I've seen how my friend kena hounded when he gave his real number so i learned. Anyway, i think i have been asked quite a few times and i always changed the last digit to 1.

And i realised what if there's someone with that phone number?? The person must be thinking who the hell is Siqi and curse me like no tomorrow for all the calls! Opps :/

I am sure they "chose" me not because im pretty but only because of my height. Srlsy, i just woke up from my train ride so i bet my hair was messy like shit. Besides, most of these hunters tapped me from the back, not front. Thus self-confidence boost? Zero.

Anyway the person asked me to visit the website on the name card or if i have time, go Clarke Quay or something. It's the first time any model agency asked me to visit their website or their building. whatsoever. Most of them just take down my number and bye-bye because i think they're scammers or at the very least, not as established. So i went to the website just now. Er, i guess its quite ok lor. But the local models like not very good-looking...

If you are interested: www.imodelsholdings.com
And yup. That's the end of today's superficial post. Bye bye.

Harry Potter Finale.

AHHH, Im going to watch Harry Potter later! :D

I havent read ALL the series nor watched ALL the movies but based on what i've read and watch, Harry Potter IS magical :D

I dont usually love books. They might be nice to read but hardly any gets into my favourite list. Even Hunger Games fell short of my expectations. But Harry Potter is a wonderful and beautiful series. I love the plot and the schemes and all. I think im those kind of person who likes to read plots that twist or have a lot of plotting and scheming inside (thats why i like to watch those historic shows where the concubines all vie for the Emperor's attention). It keeps me hooked. And honestly, Harry Potter's plot is very deep. It has always amaze me how JK Rowling thought of so many details, right last down to the very small bits.

Like how each and every mother figure in HP is so brave and beautiful and touching:

think about narcissa who LIED AT THE DARK LORD’S FACE just to find out if her son is alive. and she wasn’t even sure is harry was telling her the truth, but she believed him and she believed him because that was what she wanted: for her son to be safe. and do you remember when she tried to free her son from that task voldemort gave him? she swore that she would do ANYTHING, ANYTHING for her son not to fulfill that task and she doesn’t even care if she’d doing the right thing or not.

think about lily, who sacrificed HER LIFE for the sake of her son. lily who, even at the last moments of her life, thought of protecting her son. lily who, loved her son so much that her love protected him even after she passed on.

and of course, think about molly, who raised SEVEN CHILDREN and was able to raise them well, despite their financial difficulties. molly who fought by her children’s side, molly who faced voldemort’s best lieutenant to defend her only daughter. molly who lost a son to the war. molly who loved harry and hermione like her own.

And you know the tale of the three brothers in Harry Potter?
(Click here if you dont. Please ignore the guy. Its not me)


Like omg!! REVELATION! How in the world is JK Rowling so smart?
Ok, to end it off:
No worries, not much spoilers.

"Our boy finally got it right"
(Please look at Hermoine's face, hahaha!)

I like Hermoine's, Fred and George's, Draco's and Luna's lines!
Btw, i love Luna Lovegood! She's so pretty and her character is so unique :D

And my Emma Watson's speech from the movie red carpet premiere in London:



All pictures are taken from Tumblr.
Btw, my FF has this app where you can change your dashboard theme and mine is HP ^^

c'mon baby we arent gonna live forever

I shopped again today ):

I bought the Watsons curling iron cause it was going for $10!!! Idk why Watsons are having so many crazy sales right now but hey, im not complaining ;) But ya lor, i also dono when i will use it. I almost bought the facial steamer thing cause it was $15 only. But im about to go broke.

And i bought a facial cleanser, which is ok since i ran out of mine. And a lip balm cause my old one broke. This new one is like a lip blam with colour. So i chose the deepest pink. Quite moisturising but it is shimmery! ): I dont like my lips to be shimmering. I'll probably wear it at home only lor.

I'm going to fast on shopping next month. I shall only shop what i plan, AND NOT IMPULSIVE SHOPPING.

Am listening to The Veronicas. They used to be quite popular. I first heard them in lower Sec. After so many years, their songs are still so nice (:
One of my favourites:



My class attendance is getting poorer and poorer. Oh well.

who says shopping is cheaper than a psychiatrist?

I've been thinking about it. Its not because i have nothing to wear, its because i dont like to repeat my clothes. Which is why i keep buying new ones!!! I feel very sad leh. I think i shopped too much...

THIS MONTH (may i remind you its just half way through July)
I bought 2 dress. One floral and one just a plain white flowy dress.

I bought a leopard shirt/singlet. Not because i want to but because Pearl once suggested to coordinate our clothes when Tanya wear her "sexy back" dress. (I smsed Tanya about the good news and her reply was: NO. )':)


I bought 4 nail polishes because i thought they were pretty even though i hardly wear any now.


I bought a lip tint but that's ok since i wanted to buy it since a long time ago.
Btw, i love lip tint! They are highly pigmented and long lasting! Just make sure you dont buy one that makes your lips dry.


I bought a new pair of shoes... just because.

I bought a wallet... just because too.

I dont even dare to calculate how much i spent on food and miscellaneous ):
Brb, i shall go kill myself now.