Monday, October 31, 2011

cinemagraphs

Cinemagraphs: Moving pictures.
Simply put, it is a picture but a part of the picture moves.
Still confused? Watch this:



"Photographer Jamie Beck and motion graphics artist Kevin Burg may have finally found a way to elevate the animated GIF to a level approaching fine art, with their "cinemagraphs" — animated creations that are "something more than a photo."

Beautiful. I love it so much because it's like capturing the little details in life and watching it come alive at the same time.

Sunday, October 30, 2011

the wise men follow the stars, the way i follow my heart


"I think one of the worst feelings in the world, right behind heartbreak, is that disgustingly empty feeling you get right after you spill your heart out and lay all your cards on the table. Right after you get the courage to say everything you have been feeling and be completely and recklessly honest. it's that feeling you get right after you risk everything, and he just walks away. Because then you'd realise that you just lost. You just lost everything you didn't even know you had when you said "what do I have to lose?"

Saturday, October 29, 2011

some people just dont get it.



I could see it in their eyes.  

The instant when i shouted; the moment when even the teacher froze to stare at me in shock...
It was like the bit of time when the roller coaster was suspending at its peak, threatening to plummet anytime. The split second of dreadfulness delicately mixed with anticipation. And then... woosh! Down you go! The sudden plunge left you no choice but to face what you were afraid to. The speed intoxicates you until your mind goes blank. Your lungs bursting with excitement, your heart drumming with adrenaline. Suddenly, you're the only one in the world. You're the only one that's important. Nothing else matters. The feeling of your burden lifting itself from your chest. Gone was the hesitation and anxiety.
It was exhilarating. 

Everyone was looking at me in shock, in fear.
Let them think me as a crazy woman.
I dont care.
In fact, i would do it again and again and again and again!

I have the rights to say no and if people dont like my answer, then too bad lor.


I know who's worth my sacrifices and who isn't 
Seen and faced rejections too many times and have learnt my lesson.

Friday, October 28, 2011

really overdue pics















Ya, you can totally see my black, red and yellow hair from the above pic ):

TUESDAY. Class is for fun.






TUESDAY. Went to support Serene for her CO concert (:




And i met my long-lost sister.


Its sad to know what you would do for someone and that they wont do the same for you.
Why do i never learn my lesson about selfishness?


Wednesday, October 26, 2011

"Remember me as an unicorn"


Just heard about the news of Jamie Hubley. He's a 15 year old Canadian boy who committed suicide because of bullying. Jamie Hubley was known to his friends as a happy kid who always smiled and gave hugs to people. However, he was depressed because people bullied him as he was gay.

"I hate being the only open gay guy in my school . . . It fucking sucks, I really want to end it,"


On his blog, he mentioned that being gay in high school was so hard. On Youtube there's an campaign called It Gets Better. It is where people relate their struggles to be accepted by the society about their sexuality. Referring to that, Jamie Hubley said that it was just too hard.


"I dont want to wait 3 more years, this hurts too much. How do you even know It will get better? Its not."

Jamie Hubley wrote a final post on his angst-filled blog to say goodbye to his family and friends before committing suicide. Do you know that suicide is the second-leading cause of death for Canadians between the ages of 10 and 24 and disproportionately affects gay, lesbian, bisexual and transgender youth?


"I wish I could be happy, I try, I try, I try . . . I just want to feel special to someone,"


It's really sad why people would want to bully others. And why cant people accept others for who they are? Gay, lesbians, bisexuals, transgenders, whatever. All these are predetermined before birth. As a Christian, I believe that God made us perfect but sin made us imperfect and that we are born with sin. Scientifically speaking, there are scientists who believe that homosexuals are born that way. They dont have a choice.

Think about it: Who are we to judge and bully others? Are you perfect? Do you not lust? Are you not greedy? Have you not been envious of others?

-digression-

Then there's the case where people always think that Christians are against homosexuality. NO. We are just against sin. Just as there are verses about homosexuality, there are also verses against other sins (eg. Lust).

About same-sex behaviour
Leviticus 18:22 "And you must not lie down with a male the same as you lie down with a woman. It is a detestable thing."
About lust
Matthew 5:29 "If your right eye causes you to sin, gouge it out and throw it away. It is better for you to lose one part of your body than for your whole body to be thrown into hell."

I dont know why people focused only on verses about homosexuality (when there so many other verses about other sins) which causes people to think that Christians hate homosexuals. 

John 3:16 "For God so loved the world that he gave his one and only Son, that whoever believes in him shall not perish but have eternal life."

The world. Not only Christians, not only "straight" people. But the entire world. Just to clear the air.

Here's to all the bullies and those who are/were bullied:



"And do you realise the words you say make bruises that wont fade away?"

Monday, October 24, 2011

You always want what you cant have



Guess who has ugly hello kitty nails? Me.
Failed attempt.

Anyway, i recently heard this old song called For You I Will (Confidence) by Teddy Geiger. Ohmygosh. Its such an old song and i remember how in love i was with the song. One of the best love songs eveeeeeer. I think i would just melt if any guy serenade me with this song. Like srsly.



"It’s funny how when you finally get over someone, you start seeing them in a whole new perspective. It’s like you’re looking at them through the eyes of your best friend, and you realize, he’s nothing special. He’s just another ordinary boy."

Thursday, October 20, 2011

Reminiscing

So, i passed by my sec school today.
People always say how secondary was their best part of their schooling lives but not me. Everyday i wished that i would get into poly soon. The only thing that helped me through those 4 years were friends.

Like XX. Although i cant remember the moments that we have but i remember the emotions. We were always doing stupid and crazy things (fine, i was the one doing the stupid, crazy things and she just stayed at the side and laugh) and fangirl-ing. Hahaha i still have the Kim Bum pictures that she gave me. And whenever teacher asked the class to do pair work, we would immediately look at each other, no matter how far we sat apart.

Looking back, i realised i've changed so much. It makes me wonder if i meet up with my secondary school friends again, would they still like me?

And i will try to fix you


When you try your best but you don't succeed
When you get what you want but not what you need
When you feel so tired but you can't sleep
Stuck in reverse

And the tears come streaming down your face
When you lose something you cannot replace
When you love someone but it goes to waste
Could it be worse?

Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you

And high up above or down below
When you're too in love to let it go
But if you never try you'll never know
Just what you're worth

Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you

Tears stream down your face
When you lose something you cannot replace
Tears stream down your face
And I
(2x)

Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you.

Monday, October 17, 2011

You're my heart heart heart breaker


Today, I walked into the classroom saying "Sorry, I'm late" only to get "Actually, you're absent" from my teacher.

I wonder how am i going to survive the rest of the semester.

Well, documentary class seemed cool albeit being boring. I've always liked documentaries - especially if its about animals and now i cant wait to make one of my own. Problem is, the documentaries that our senior made... Well, i dont know if i can hit that standard cause i dont even understand their videos :/ Their documentary styles are very different from what i know. Le sigh.

Watched Real Steel ALONE today. The feeling of watching a movie alone is weird. I think the ang mo beside me was wondering why i was alone. Forever Alone HAHA! Hm, even though i wont speak during movies (well unless its really boring), i reckon i prefer watching with my friends (: I feel safer and less awkward, if that makes any sense.

Well, tomorrow's a bitch so i might as well enjoy today as much as possible!

Sunday, October 16, 2011

darling can we go all the way?

XY came over my house to help me dyed my hair a few days ago.
And uhhh, my hair looks really absurd now. Srsly! I cant help but laugh just thinking of my hair because i think i look like an ah lian hahahaha omg. Kill me please.

The top part of my hair is yellowish-brown and the rest is reddish-brown. HAHAHAHA, if anyone asks, im gonna tell them i did ombre dye... except its at the top of my head.


Ashlee Simpson with her ombre hair.

Ahhh, luckily its not obvious in normal lightings. Ridiculous ttm, sigh.

School starts tomorrow - today - and i cant wait to see my friends again but the thought of projects makes me want to groan. URGHHHHHHH.

Random update: Chris Evans is so sexayeeeee in What's Your Number. And Mila Kunis is soooo pretty! Love Friends With Benefit!
And I am currently loving Allstar Weekend's new songs... but they are all quite sexual o.O

Sunday, October 9, 2011

what you can do in less than 15 min





My friends ditched me so I decided to turn my ugly and baggy pants into a decent pair of shorts.
Hey, i needed a high-waist denim anyway.

Wednesday, October 5, 2011

my favourite models











Barbara Palvin, Frida Gustavsson, both born on 1993... And then there's me.
Have never been interested in the modelling industry but now i am. I think i can stare at Barbara Palvin's face forever and ever.

Trying to decide if i should grow my hair long or stay as shoulder length and keep side bangs or go center-parting.
Choices, decisions, choices.

Going out soon, bye.

Saturday, October 1, 2011