im dying

Time really flies in a blink of an eye... I thought the last time i blogged was yesterday but it turns out to be 4 days ago??? My head hurts. People have already started filming their VPPP and me? I just emailed Fred my idea =.=

Suddenly, i miss studying. I see people writing and flipping pages in Starbucks and i realised i forgot how it felt. I wanna sit down and focus on the book in front of me too! I wanna write like crazy and squeeze out all my brain juice.

Shit. I just received a really upsetting sms ):

I AM NOT COPING WELL AT ALL.
I have so many projects to do... but people are FORCING me to go out with them. Seriously. When i reject them and explain my reasons (not excuses hor) nicely, they will use their tactics. Some use their authority ("I dont care, you promised me.") while others use the pitiful method ("Huuuuuh. So long never see you liao leh... I really hope you'll come... Come leh...")

When i say i cant go, i mean it. I need all the time i have to chiong my CAs and spend time with my cousins because they're going back to Germany in like a week. Im busy, cant they understand that? You dont see me asking them out during exam week. Now that my projects are in crisis, cant they do the same for me? Guess not.
Whatever, fml.

what does it take to get you, if i never met you

Was reading my other blogs (which are used to contain all my archives from when i was 13... cause i dont want people reading embarrasing stuff which i wrote) and i came across A LOT of funny entries. Most of it was due to maplestory (yes, i was very obsessed with it during my sec sch days).

Todae was very nice =) Went 2 showa town & train wif my maple sis. We met 1 guy & 1 of my fren. The boi damn irratatin cuz he kip foloin us...[ k lar. Don be so bad x)) ] I tok 2 my sis in private then my fren say he afk. So we tok & tok & tok:
Me: I tink he lyk u...
My sis: CHOY! Beside, he gt wife le x)) [By wife, we meant he was married in maple]
Me: Then u b his mistress lar!
My sis: U mean concubine? Puke blood!
Me: Wth! U mean he emperor ar? PUKE BLOOD!
My sis: Lol
SO when he came bak, we kip callin him 'Emperor' and kneel down x))
Then I log off cuz I nid 2 bathe. When I cme bak, she nid 2 log off liao =.=
So in the end, I went bak 2 Henesys 2 find mi sis & her frens. Then join their pt. We began trainin & then gt tis guy, lvl 7o+ ks us.
I kip callin him show off...Then he say he trainin fren so add us in party. Then add me in his guild 4 no reason =.=
And then, expel us frm party.
So I quit his guild lor. x)) Then we kip callin him names.
Suddenly he scold me y I leave his guild...So I join bak again...And then ppl say I flirt wif him...=.= WIF HIM??? CHOY!!!
Then he ask wat does flirt means =.=
A person say womanizing. He ask wat does tat means.
I got fed up ask him how old...he say 14...=.= Wth!
We went out of trainin ground. Then I say I nid 2 go 4 piano lesson to the guild leader. I wanted 2 tell my frens but press wrongly...
In the end ask me some stupid question which I wont tell & I log off.

HAHAHAHA omg, you tell me funny or not?!?! I still can remember my username was pixi3shoe. LOL! I kena laughed by people cause of my username. I still remember why i called myself pixi3shoe... Cause when i started playing maple, my aunt bought me this hand-made fragrant shaped as a pixie-shoe. It was so pretty so i decided to call myself pixi3shoe. LOL!!

Then there is also this one entry which was about making a wish cause it was xmas celebration that time.

I ask him how to close eyes & he said f7
So, all of us f7 and wish.
The 2nd guy wished us everyday happy.
I go & wreacked his wish by saying
wish all of us sad everyday.
The 1st guy even more worse.
Wish us everyday happy & sad.
So in the end, we need to put on happy & sad faces ,
changing repeatly.
The 2nd guys said sing song.
So we sang
We wish you a merry christmas.
I was so happy so I requested another song.
The 1st guy sang
Jingle bell... Jingle Bell... she dced...
His friend dc le....
Lol...
Today, I found out that I always anyhow add people
in my buddy list.
I've counted.
There's abt 7-8 people whom I forgot who they are
and how I met them.
I asked two of them if they still remember me
And they said yes.
My memory sure lousy!!

I have STM since i was 13 sia!! omg hahahaha damn funny to read all my oldest entries. Some more so many spelling and grammar errors! Ok la, now i also have many grammatically wrong sentences, hahaha! So bimbo sia. Last time i spell bye as "buaii", lol!
So ridiculous! Now you know why i kept my other blogs a secret... All these things too humiliating for people to see.

Omg, and this is funny too. I was in music appreciation class during secondary school and there was once we went to watch some concert at Victoria Concert Hall.

The concert quite funni
There was tis women singin high pitch
She wasn’t usin mike but it was loud
If she use the mike, my eardrum burst le
x))
She sing one song very funni
It goes lyk tis:
Ha ha ha he
Ho ho ho he
Ha ha ho ho he he
I seriously tink tat she was laughin & was tryin 2 cover it up
x))

WTH?! I was in music APRRECIATION class and that was what i wrote. Omg, hahahaha! No wonder i only got B4 for my 'O' level music. =.='

My secondary school days... The first two years were immature but fun. I was crazy over maple and look how many funny experiences i churned out! The last 2 years were more serious. I stopped playing maple and things weren't so light-hearted anymore. Many events occurred in my sec 3/sec 4 years and i think i grew a lot in that period of time.

I've always thought my secondary days were the worst period of my life (surpassing my primary school days which were reaaaaaally bad) but looking back, it isnt as bad as it seems. Or maybe its because my memory? Dont you think that memories always glorify the actual events? Everytime i reminisce, nothing seems too bad. You may hate this person now but years later, everything looks so childish to you, no?

I've grown up and learned so many things. All my experiences and encounters with people... And it is through all these that i built up my self-confidence. Im not born sociable, you know? Back in those days, i was introverted and was "invisible" to many people. I didnt like that at all. Which is why i push myself to go for events, to get to know more people. All im saying is, if you dont like the way things are, then do something to change it. And so, here i am right now. The past events really do have a huge part in shaping me.

So, did your past affect you?

all i want for christmas is you

Merry Xmas, everyone!

Took an oath, i'ma stick it out to the end

"They say true friends can go long periods of time without speaking and never question their friendship. These friends pick up like they just spoke yesterday regardless of how long it has been or how far away they live and don’t hold grudges. They understand that life is busy, but that you will always love them."












Though hard, the cookies were nice. I felt your looooooove (and bias-ness) la! :D







She was running while camwhoring because i didnt allow her to camwhore with my camera and started chasing her.

Had a fun time doing the jumpshots. SH is seriously unglam ttm! I dont dare to upload her embarrasing pictures here cause i think she'll kill me, hahahaha. But we laughed until our stomach ached!


Both of us had flu ):



SH made us laugh a lot today. But she was late for an hour! >:)
Though we call her crazy, it is the insane side of her that i like. Sometimes i wonder if she is truly happy... if she's happy when she's alone, haunted by her own thoughts. I dont know, but i want her to be always smiley. Because when she's cheerful = she acting deranged = us laughing like mad.
I like the insane and happy SH best (:

A friend of mine just broke up with her bf... after i wished them to stay together for a long long time. They seemed so happy, you know? Without any problems. But i guessed it was only on the surface. End of the year seems to be a great time for break ups, huh? I see broken hearts everywhere i go.

Having flu on Xmas eve is no fun... I think i'll turn into Rudolph by tomorrow :O

Of all the people i met, i chased after you

I've been watching quite a number of shows recently...

1. sungkyunkwan scandal
I started this since a month ago?! But i have not finish it because i put it on hiatus for weeks already. The first few episodes were good. The middle was so-so. I only watched it because got one cute guy. Then i stopped at episode 16 and have not continue since. I dont plan to continue it anyway. The last few episodes are really draggy. So yup. Im gonna give up.


2. Gloomy Salad Days
The title bugs me. I initially thought that the title was Gloomy Saturdays because it sounds more logical... But what is Salad Days?! The show doesnt even feature any salads =.= In fact, the title and the show are waaaaaaay off. Anyway, because my friend says its good (maybe she's biased cause she's crazy over some of the actors in it) so i decided to trust her. Er, its a really slow-paced show. I mean, the story ideas are good but its seriously draggy. It was so boring that i stopped at episode 3. New record leh. And i dont think i will continue watching it anymore. Sorry XX, its too slow for me to take.



3. All My Love
Its supposedly a sitcom but its not that funny. I only watch it because of JoIn. Well, at least its not very slow-paced.



4. Breakout
One of Mediacorp's better shows. The beginning is really awesome. The characters are great with many back stories and stuff. However, i feel that its starting to get draggy. Hmm, i think i have the stamina to watch the whole show though. See how first (:
PS, while searching for the picture (which google does not have), i came across this forum discussing if Breakout should be rated R21. Ehhh, personally, i think no need R21 la. Though there are some scenes which are gruesome. Like forcefully extracting tooth and using fire extinguisher to hit someone. And there i heard that there is a naked sex scene? Hmm, not sure though.


5. How I Met Your Mother
Awesome show except that its very on-off for me. I can watch 5 episodes at one go and then stop for 2 weeks. Not that it is not good but because you dont have to watch every episode of a sitcom to know the plot, you know? Besides, most of the episodes are not linked so it doesnt matter if you forgot what happened on the previous episode.



6. Hell's Kitchen/Dating Game
Opps. I have totally forgotten them :/ Will watch it real soon because THEY ARE AWESOMEZXZXZ! Ok la, Dating Game not that epic cause its only exciting at the ending. Hell's Kitchen is exciting all the way :D



7. The Girl Who Leapt Through Time
I only watched this because i heard that the live-action movie is coming soon. As usual, Japanese have great anime movies. Though the starting is quite boring, the ending has an unexpected twist. Plus it ended with "I'll be waiting for you"
NOOOOOOOOOO ): Japanese people always do this. The couples always never FOR SURE end up together. Like Spirited Away. Haku is supposedly freed from the agreement but we dont know if Chihiro and him ends up together. Liar Game too. ):




8. Spirited Away
I watched this once when i was young but i didnt really get the whole thing. I watched it for the visual stuff like the gods etc. I watched it again yesterday and it was still nice. Spirited Away is one show that even 10 or 20 years down the road, it will still be as good. After watching it, i went to wiki cause there were some parts which i didnt get. And i had a few revelations, lol. Btw, Japanese animes always have such great soundtracks! :D

From Spirited Away:



From The Girl Who Leapt Through Time:


Aiya, i actually wanted to watch 5 cm per second because i heard it was one of the saddest animated movie from Japan. But its so hard to find videos ): Btw, dont ever watch dubbed versions. Its seriously terrible... especially when you compare to the original one.

And and, im all up if anyone wants to watch this upcoming movie!

encouragement (:

Just gonna stand there and watch me burn
But that's alright cause i like the way it hurts
Just gonna stand there and hear me cry
But that's alright cause i love the way you lie

VPPP is giving me a headache. I need to think of more ideas. Think brain, think! I better complete the thinking process of VPPP and CS by this week! Im running out of time >:(

Recently, many of my friends are heart lorn. They come to me and tell me their sad stories and all i want to do is to shake them and shout, "GET A GRIP ON YOURSELF!! WHY ARE YOU SUCH A WEAKLING?!"

Its not that im angry with them... im angry at MYSELF. Because i can only listen to their story and watch their hearts get broken. I can only stand aside and look at them helplessly. And i hate it! I want them to tell me about their stories cause i want to be there for them but at the same time, i feel pekchek. Omg can die sia X.X

I wish they can quickly get over their relationships. The first step is to believe that you can. Dont be a wimp and keep thinking of the other party. No matter what, be firm with yourself! Dont give excuses like "you dont understand" or "i simply cant forget". It will only prolong the pain longer. Not only you suffer, i also suffer.

YOU PEOPLE CAN DO IT! JIAYOU!
I CAN DO IT FOR MY PROJECTS TOO! JIAYOU!!

when memories fade, you can count on pictures

I TOOK A SUPER LONG TIME TO UPLOAD AND ARRANGE THESE PICTURES T_____T

Welfare Chalet '10
Met up with Michelle and Weiliang and some other welfare people to eat lunch and shop for groceries. We were making so much ruckus in NTUC :P Then we travelled to our chalet which was at aloha changi. Yes, it was right next to OCH!






The chalet was old and placed in an ulu location with OCH right beside us. But at least it was big.
While waiting for the "participants" to come, ate dinner (or lunch for some) and played card games.... and camwhored :/
I actually took many many pictures with weiliang. Cause i wanted to test out the different functions on my camera but didnt want to take photos of me only (later people think i so self-obsessed ah). Just nice he was sitting next to me, heehee! Halfway through he complained but he still took pictures with me cause he's a nice person :D



Michelle.. why you so photogenic ): Plus you got high cheekbones )):




LOL LOL LOL! He was trying out the hair clip that JingJing bought cause it looks interesting.


And then, people started to stream in.
Played the Drinking Game. I think i drank 5 cups of water in a go. Almost died. But ah gong and Joshua was worser situation. I think they drank more than 10 cups, hahahahhahaha!!!

Koey was trying to snatch my camera cause Yiyang threw something at her while she was taking picture. SUPER UNGLAM AND FUNNY but i deleted it )':

Ehhh, my uncle was watching Invincible Youth and asked me to watch. SNSD fan much?



I cant remember what happened the rest of the night/day. Played cards, cycled around OCH and Changi Village and exchanged horror stories. OH YEAH! WE WATCHED TRANNY VIDEOS! Omg hahahaha. Changi Village is famous for ah guas so the guys went cycling and even recorded videos. There was one where the "girl" gave the guy a blowjob i think?! It was recorded from far, upside down plus it was suuuuuper shaky so i could only vaguely see two people kissing. But some told me it was a bj cause the girl was squatting down!!! OMG x 100000000!



While watching the video, ShiJie showed us the Facebook can take pictures leh!


Then some of them went outside to drink (JunChai was completely drunk. He sat at the curb for dont know how many hours). I couldnt drink cause i was on the organising committee.

By 3AM, i was dead beat so i went to sleep. It was only me and Boyang on the bird initially. After a while, 4 more people squeezed in. Seriously 6 people on the bed?!?! I was squashed all the way to the side while Lionel had to hug Boyang cause there was no more space. In the end i gave up. I let the 3 girls and 2 guys sleep while i went to watch sunrise with Sarah.


But we didnt see the sunrise cause the sun refuse to rise. I dont know la, the seniors say cannot see so we went back. We saw a reaaaaaally cute kitten though :DIm the only girl who didnt run away cause all of them were scared. But the black kitty was really adorable cause its super tiny!! Except that i didnt like it when it come smelling my feet. I have a phobia of animals licking me, ask Pearl. For some reason, it kept coming towards me though i didnt even pet it. KimHong said it was because my slippers got ball so i took it off. BUT IT STILL AIMED MY FEET. KimHong came to the conclusion that i have a motherly feel, heeeeheeee :P

Went back to chalet and played Monopoly Deal. Honestly, i cant master the game! Up till now i have not won a single round. Everytime im close to winning, someone would win first >:(

Morning came and we went to return the bikes. Cherie flew off from her bike though ): Luckily it wasn't anything serious. Then Welfare cooked maggie mee for the participants.


Went to sleep cause i was really tired. Woke up in the noon and realised that only Welfare people were left cause the rest went out. Played card games until more people arrive for the BBQ night.

We also played The Memory Game and Cheat. CSCC got many fun games!! Cheat was hilarious. Valerie said, "I dont cheat" when it was her turn and everyone laughed cause the point of the game is to lie. Then she started with a new round and i didnt have the cards so i lied. QX wanted to expose me but he accidentally opened Valerie's cards. SHE CHEATED LEH!! AFTER SAYING "I DONT CHEAT!"

HAHAHAHAHA MAD FUNNY LOR!

Then BBQ officially starts~


The picture above reminds me of another picture which we took earlier this year...


LIONEL ALWAYS SQUASH MY HEAD, HMPF!!




Then we started playing Chubby Bunny. I stopped at 6 while the guys stopped at 10. I thought i was seriously going to puke when i tried to swallow the marshmallows. Though bbq marshmallows were thumbs up! (Y)
Lionel looks so shuai even though his mouth is like mega full...


and i look idiotic D:
Sad life i have ): Anyway, i shall end this with a funny picture.


2 guys at the height of 190 (++) each. LOL!!